When I was found and saved, I wasn’t in the best of places. All throughout my life, I had been searching for a reason to live, something to be devoted to, something to justify all the choices I had made until now.
When I was found and saved, I was feeling lonely and directionless. Due to Queens College being mostly a commuter school, I’ve never cemented any of the friendships that got me through the hardships of middle and high school, so the burdens of college really got to me, and so I ended up looking and asking for help… and now, in hindsight, I feel that the Lord really answered my prayers in an instant.
I was not born or raised Christian, but I believed in miracles that can’t be explained by anything other than divine intervention. However, I went through most of my life looking for something that would validate my existence, whether that would be various crushes on girls, or good grades, or peace with my family. I wasn’t looking past these simple pleasures, and because of that, I still felt unaccomplished, even after I entered college, started a job, and all those simplicities went out the window.
But I was found and saved, and my life in a few short moments, completely turned 180 degrees. Starting in my first ever small group, I learned about the life of Jesus, and there I found fellowship with others who were walking the same path, who had walked the path before, who were willing to lead a lost person like me.
Now, I’m still walking and learning how to have a mind towards God, but already, I see others who I have personally affected in their path. This Chi Alpha community is one of the greatest blessings I feel God has bestowed upon a lost lamb like me, and I hope all those who feel directionless and lonely on the Queens College campus will have the opportunity to check out a small group sometime, and find out what kind of relationship they will have with Jesus Christ.
-Kevin, senior